Who's in charge here?
Posted on Monday, February 10 2014 @ 17:48:27 PST
It has been quite some time since I last posted here. There are no reasons worth explaining, but I do intend to return with more frequency so the one person (maybe) who reads something that I post can have another five minutes of time with something I created. That said, I have something a bit somber to talk about.
I joined the military with a strong sense of pride and patriotism. I knew my whole life that I would join, and I wouldn't change my mind. Unfortunately, I am leaving the military with a sense of loss. Not regrets for what I've done, or places I haven't gone, but for the direction the military seems to be headed. My only sliver of hope is that the depths of this very faulty installation and city is contained within, and doesn't extend to those who remain on duty to serve and protect our country elsewhere. The loss I feel is for the ones who have already given up on their duty here. Those who have tried to volunteer for separation after hardly a year in service. I have seen potential for great leaders in some of those people, but their aspirations have been crushed by the greedy climb for power displayed by those appointed over us.
I don't regret my service, but I wish I didn't have to see the way things have fallen apart. Our country deserves better. The one thought that tried to keep me here, is that I know the kind of person I am. I know the will that I bring to work every day, and the ever exuding morale I do my best to show those I work with. I care about our country, and our military, and our mission. Despite all the struggle, I still care. The same can't be said for a majority of people at this base.
I spend a lot of time playing video games now, since I divorced a year ago on friday. Yes, that is valentine's day. It was a perfect day to watch your wife leave with your son in the back of your car. But this isn't about the country song my life turned into. I'm here for the games. Like I was saying, I play a lot of games. Mostly games like Battlefield when it comes to my Xbone, but I dabble with Assassin's Creed as well. I find that I won't touch Battlefield without a squad of friends to join me. There is a distinct feeling of reward knowing that you decimated the enemy because of your team work. When you've got it down to a science and nobody can stop you, the game is at its best. When you run around as a lone wolf and hardly contribute to your team because you keep getting slaughtered, it tends to be pretty dull.
If there was a way to put the right people in the right jobs in Battlefield, nobody would have this issue. Much the same as my unfortunate military experience, those appointed over me have failed us all in the leadership department. The only time I had any good leadership in my enlistment was my deployment. I'm still not at ease with that whole situation either, but, I guess most people aren't.
I hope this enlightens anybody who wishes to join the Air Force. I certainly encourage it, but I just want to warn you that it is not an easy climb. There are many people out to get you, and it is very hard not to quit sometimes. But who ever said the military was supposed to be easy?